day five.

she can remove the needle herself in the middle of the night when her hands are being tied !!!
we decided not to cure her le...
sorry ah ma...
i really don't know what to do...
the more you dotes on me... the more sorry i am...
dun wish to type le...


ps: please live as long as you can...

day four.

there will be no pictures till my ah ma is discharge...
hope the nurses wont ill-treat her...
i know she is v hard to handle...
its really painful to see her keep struggling you know?
no one can feel the pain...
i wonder did she feel happy before?
i never done anything for her...
and i have no position to say this.


life is broken up in many many stages...
people come and go in your life...
some will stay at your side...
because both parties treasure the relationship...
some will walk away...
for some reasons or no reasons...
what bring us together and what force us to separate?
not time...
not other people...
not places...
is our heart...
i believe there is only 2 slots in each of every ones' heart...
one for our friends and families and the other one is for the special one...
the slot is empty or it has been taken up...
only the owner knows...
that's what i believe...


we can't possible address everyone we know of as friends or families...
some so-called "friends" are actually "strangers who we only know their names"...
some "friends" are actually " people who we have their contacts but never contact"...
we cant really say we have lost a friend...
if a friendship is capable of ending...
it is because it never existed...
a friend is someone who knows all about you and love you anyway...
someone who pick up your calls at 4am...
someone who walks in, when the rest of the world walks out...
have i lost a stranger or a friend?
what are families?
just that we had a little bit of blood relation...
how i wish... ... ...

everyone hears what we say...
friends listens to what we say...
who listens to what we don't say?

i totally agree with this sentence...
"it started as a joke and ended as a joke"
a joke which people will laugh and forget...

i am indeed fortunate to have this blog...
i can type out things which people may disagree with me...
but i still can share it out with everybody...


are you the one who reaches for my hand, but touches my heart?
the answer is do we deserved?


ps: i am proud to have 2 out-spoken cousins...

day three.

its painful to see so many 伤口 on her hands...
she complain that she is v tired but cant sleep...
i really hope that all the suspects are false...


busy is an excuse really...
my cousin, my uncle and aunt prove it to me...
so there is nothing called busy...
only thing is time management...
if got money give you, will you be busy?
no more busy to be heard...


it is contradicting to say that we hate people to control you and yet you are controlled by someone...
we are the tv or remote control?


tml will be a tired day...
smile =)

day two.

woke up at 10:45am...
ah wei gor drove me to TTSH...
we were the 1st to arrive...
my ah ma is v pityful...
she cannot sleep till now...
for two days...
her hands became so skinny...
she still fell v scared there...
how?
there is no one accompany her there...
her hands are being tied to the bed...
cos she keep taking out all the medical equipments attached at her hands...
cannot blame her as she also dont know what she is doing...
she plead to me to take off the special gloves to tie her hands...
i tried to take off once...
but she keep taking off all the stuffs out again...
no choice but to put back...
she talk the whole day without any sleep...
i am vvv afraid about her throat and her energy...
doctor advise us not to give her water...
she sleep le mah?
she really need special attention...
the doctor suspect she got some illness...
i wont say here...
she so old le...
the nurses will treat her bad?
she no hp with her...
i really wish she is able to sleep...
please...
please...
please...
is v painful inside my heart...
she still concern all her children when she is in this state...
ah ma lets be strong !!!
i will go visit you everyday.
dun scared...
i wont cry.


ps: did we slow down our pace to care for our loves one?

day one.

Please.
nothing will happen.
u will know who is true to you when u are in trouble.
see u tml.

ps: feel so helpless at that moment... i am useless...

living on Earth...

又没图啊？

at least she knows there is someone by the name of "鸿胜"
that's the reason why i like people to call me this way...
yesterday i went alone...
i seldom go to my auntie house there cos the feeling is very weird...
the moment she smiled to me... i realised she has the most beautiful smile in the world...
maybe i am going to visit her again this Saturday...
who want to come along with me this Saturday?
do you know the feeling of the person you love don't recognise you?
i know she dote me the most when i am a kid...
at least dote me more than my brother...
she gave my brother $10... she will definitely give $20 to me...
she is my ah ma...
but i treat her as my mother...
i dunno how to describe my feeling...
how i wish my ah ma is younger and healthier than most of the people's ah ma...


i realise the people around me are aging...
i hate this feeling...
will we still age if the Earth stop rotating?
must learn to be not too particular about trifles...
must spread the love...
use heart use heart...
dun tell me "cherish when people are still around"
i hate this phrase...
mouth say balls happy only...


mei~ i am not sure if u are really happy there...
maybe i get it wrong...
however, U GAIN LIFE EXPERIENCES WHICH PEOPLE DON'T
AND U SURVIVED...
eat proper meals please...


i am glad i have an extra msn friend...
i know what i shall do...
i tried...


sean and ah su solved my connection problems...
to me is a BIG problems...
new laptop cannot use consider big?
a friend in need is a friend indeed?
i really can feel their desire to help me...
not joking...
too lucky to meet them...


i got many guy friends who is very very nice...
i want to recommend...
any takers?
really...


i got many many many things in my mind...
but i try not to publish here...
its totally changed...
if great wall is a barrier?


sorry i really need some time to forgive u...
i need your patience...
... ... ...


i try to believe this world is beautiful...
if not, the people around me...


i start using iTunes...
please laugh...
my tweeter is working again ~


还好是喜忧参半...
i know this is no meant to be use in this way...
but this is really the case...
not all were sad news...


Smile On =)

i wish i have super power...

yo readers~
i am writing on behalf of wayne...
he may be gone for the time being...
he gave me his password in case he gone mad...


ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~


PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE
i never beg anyone before.
u can take away anything from me as long as she will be fine.
there is nothing i can do...
except going to see you...
Bless.
i am sorry.
And i love you.

走火入魔 ~

all the people in this world are acting...
sometimes i failed to realise when they have finished their filming...
yes i admit i do act...
let's act to see who looks the most natural...
let's learn from each other in that case...


yeah ~
i have some ideas for my 100th...
actually nothing to happy about...
just type here in case i forget ~


what i wrote above is rubbish...
because what i want to say...
i cant publish it out...
so i started to type rubbish...
add oil to me ~


i need help seriously.

刺陵

the greatest reader is you ~
cant read my ~
cant read my ~
there is no explanation to some of the things...
many many kinds of people in this world...
scary.

瞎!!!

let's try to be as low profile as him...
a lesson learnt...
protect protect protect ~

他出国深造回来了~

although his hosting style is always that few kinds...
i still like to watch because of his charisma...

很棒~ 赞哦~

to me...
the highest degree of blogging is...
i blog until people don't know what i am trying to say...
this will create mystery haha ~


I Like PH.
yeah its coming...


i really hope to know the reason before the day i disappear~


i need followers in my blog...
any kind souls around?
and i don't mind if it is a square...


100th still no concept...
continue reading~

ps: good luck ~

胜's画 no.99

black and white is a colour?
we are still arguing about it ~
number 100 will be?
watch out !!!

my blog song is changed ~

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

recommended by visa =D


ps: i didnt went to clarke quay with you guys not becos i dont like you all... heard that u all till 5am... wow ~ sean volunteer to fix my computer... where got so good people in this world? lucky i met you all ~ will join you guys "really" ~ LOL ~ think is time to update my da-guo-nian-de blog le ~

lie.

we keep on concerning on the things that we wish we have…

or the things we wish we didn’t have...

and we sort of forget what we do have.

We must learn to be thankful =)

it is a lie to think that we are not good enough !!!

it is a lie to think that we are not worth anything !!!

inspired by Nick Vujicic

ps: how are you?

想笑...

i like this song...

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留

Q: 香水和肥皂一同去考试，谁会及格呢?

A: 香水。因为香水有毒(有读)

ps: please keep quiet.

什么都改版了 ~

i like everything about him.

did i just run past a starting point or finishing point?
did i changed?
i don't know what is wrong with me?
tried and regret are opposite.
not changed.
is transform.
i want to be stronger.
human beings are not televisions...
cannot be control by remote control...
but i feel that we will be controlled by feelings...
i will be stronger...
because wayne is unbelievable.

ps: tml 09/09/09 09:09 is a great moment... just too bad ~

happy 89th birthday to ah ma =D

happy moments ~

ps: many things wan to share with her... but she dun rem me le... =(
who free? go visit her with me someday?

2

我告诉你

其实啊

我最近喜欢上一个东西

你觉得呢？

mutual.

i will be eating 2 happy meals every thursday =D


many thoughts but none to share...

ps: long weekend for me =)