bless.

last few days before my laobu went for her operation...
she keep suffering from insomnia...
i noticed cos i used comp till v late...
she will suddenly wake up and "tidy" the kitchen or "watch" tv...
i know she is nervous and scared about the operation...
but i kept silence and do nothing...
i only ask her why so late dun wan to sleep...
i know the reason but i didn't mention...

before she went for the operation...
all the household chores she had settled by herself...
that's her...
by herself...

this afternoon is the operation...
my father and i accompany her to the pre-operation bay...
where she get ready and prepared for the ops...
i try stay at her side every moments...
i know she is v scared at that time...
but we spoke v little at that time...
that's not the usual me who like to talk and joke...

the moment when she is being pushed to the operation theatre...
i saw her eyes are red and she keep rubbing her eyes...
she try to hide it by closing her eyes...
i feel like crying at that moment...
but i didn't...
i didn't hug her...
i didn't say " i love her"...
or maybe i don wan her to cry?
i am useless...

wait and wait...
we immediately went to see her when she is rested at her ward...
she seems ok now...
she only drank some milo...
and i really hope and pray she can discharge tml...

think she is still awake bah...

the "soft bones" taken out during the ops

the needles poking into her hand =(

懂得失去前 学会珍惜 this pharse i have try to learn it but still have not mastered it... do you?

ps: i finally cannot control my tears and cried alone in my room while writing out this entry... and i am a guy... i am not supposed to cry... thanks everyone & all are blessed =)