胜's画 no.104

3:03am and i am still awake...
a lot of things keep occupying my mind...
a lot of people keep disappointing me...
i lose confidence in human beings...
matters are getting complicated and irreversible...
i need to search myself back again...


i have a lot of thoughts in my mind...
but i am keeping to myself...
i feel that this world is fair to me...
but i hate a lot of things around me...
sometimes i feel myself terribly fake...
sometimes people is also faking their actions...
i don't know what to do...
i choose to hide and run away...
i try to mix with people who has a genuine heart...
someone who i can really behave myself...
i don't know what impressions people think of me...
but one thing matters me is that, they like me as who i am...


i admit i have a very stubborn character in me...
it is an opposite of perseverance...
so it is consider as negative...
i really hate myself when i made a decision...
i will force myself to stick to it...
it may turns out well or worse...
but it doesn't matter...
as long i am responsible for it...


now i really don't know should i be laughing or should i be crying?
or should i say, when i should be smiling?
am i doing at the right time?
or did u spare me the time?



ps: i am just typing some nonsenses... am i serious anyway?