胜's画 no.105

WHAT THE HELL !!
2 whole months i have not been updating...
maybe it is worth the wait !!


i have some uncertainty in my mind...
what happens if it fails again?
i dare not think...
lets hope for the best =)


i hope i can blog more in the near future...
because i love the readers who read my blog...
something for you to take away after reading this entry...
if you can control your emotion, you can control any circumstances =)

sound of silence

sometimes i wonder if i am the only one left blogging...
i feel peace in here...
a venue for me to type some nonsensical words...
or maybe some sensible sentences?


jealousy...
hatred...
misunderstanding...
argument...
around me...
it does affect me a little...
but i choose to ignore...
i am tired of these...


i admit i keep my thoughts to myself...
even i dislike a person, i will not mention...
there is no point highlighting...
maybe this is the way how i handle matters...
this may work well sometimes...
and opposite in some other time...


what will you do when you are sad?
what will you do when you are furious?
what will you do when things not going your way?


i will remain silence...
cheers...

let's lift ourselves up ;)

WAYNE is BACKKKKK ~
once again... i struggle to begin my post...
i know the reason...
the reason is i am not comfortable to share my thoughts with others especially strangers...
that's why i struggled...
and now i struggle...


it will be too tiring if you need to decide whether to like something...
maybe not tiring...
it will be a live with a regret...
we must live in the present...
who knows when will the disaster come to punish us...
maybe not punish...
it's a reminder to us...
to cherish the moment and treasure the ones...


in physics, a force is any influence that causes a free body to undergo a change in speed, a change in direction or a change in shape...
yes... that is force...
yes... that is influence...
not everything can be forced...
this include friendship...
when there is force... there will be friction...
there will be tension...
and maybe there will be nothing...
yes... nothing...
just like nothing has happened...
and this is not physics anymore...
maybe this is an art...
an art of emotions?


what am i struggling?
actually nothing to be fair...
i can still breathe, eat and sleep with no worries...
these may be a luxuries to some others...
yes... i have the right to deserve for more...
i know that...
and so it brings back to my title of my post...
let's lift ourselves up and achieve our dream =)

have you forgotten wayne-believable? II

...
because we are not even friends...
no wonder i reacted that way...
maybe i should listen to my actions more...
i am too easily influenced by others...
this blog will go on...
when is the next updates?
it will be the day you have forgotten wayne-unbelievable...



ps: no pictures this time due to some errors ~

have you forgotten wayne-unbelievable ?

WHAT THE HELL !!
i stare at my screen for five minutes killing my brain cells to start this entry...
and yes another five more minutes...
perhaps i lost the skill of blogging...


everyone is laughing at me...
everyone is telling me to give up...
i replied them a yes with a double inverted commas...
... ... ...

拼什么？

YEA ~
show you something cool?!
it's okay if you don't know what i meant...
one thing for sure... his english is awesome !!


look at your calendar right now...
coming to the end of January and toward February...
so why there is still raining everyday?
there is nothing wrong with the climate or seasons...
do you guys realise december, there isn't much raining?
in fact we are one month "in advance" in our calendar...
i suggest everyone to adjust our calendar to december...
we are living way too fast...
using the natural resources way too fast...
hurting the earth way too fast...
for it to handle...
i wont be surprise if there will be a change in our calendar sooner...


just like there is one new horoscope appearing from nowhere...
called Ophiuchus...
what 蛇夫座 zzz...
i dont believe this is the 13th sign...
because i believe i belong to my original horoscope...


oh why this post is that title name?
yes everybody knows what they are striving for...
what happen if you know what you are striving for
and you know you cannot achieve?
will you still strive?


CNY is coming again...
i am happy because there will be a long period of rest...
that's all...
ya that's all for now....


do you know 那最痛的距离是... 你不在身边... 却在我的心里?

scare to scared...

so i am back to blogging !!
i promise to keep my blog alive...
wonders if you guys share the same thoughts as me...
as we grow older...
we discover a lot of awfully truth...


when people always say that they are scared of ghost...
scared of death... scared of cockroaches...
why no ones highlight human being is the most scariest?


i remember what i blogged previously which caused some unhappiness issues...
till now... i still feel i am correct...
a lot of unreasonable people with low EQ...
i can ultra-ly pretend that nothing fucking has happened...
yes by pretending...
because you all don't worth it...
or shall i say don't deserve it...


there will be no speculations as blogging is not fashionable as before...
finally found a place to speak out...
hey... i remember every fucking things...
either good or bad...


i fucking know who is good and bad...
okay i have reached the maximum of 3 fuck words in this blog post...
so scary?!

never give up ?!

MOSHI EVERYONE !!
back within 24 hours...
wants to write when i am in the mood to write...
are there still any fireworks out there?
or it is just for the few moments few hours ago?
they are beautiful but not lasting...
they are attractive but not practical...


back to reality...
back to this entry topic...
never give up?!
this sounds positive with a mark of a question...
as long as we are alive... anything is possible...
yes... maybe you wants to use some phrase to motivate others...
i sounds negative?
not really though in my opinion...
sometimes you need to give up something to move forward or to achieve another goal...
giving up is not a really bad move...
am i influencing my readers to give up easily?
not really again...
sometimes we need to give up in order not to give up...
sounds confusing?
sometimes things are too complicate to confuse people...
or people are too complicate to confuse things?
either ways are confusing...
shall end to confuse the whole world...


choice?
we choose to give up...
we choose not to give up...
that's an illustration of choice...
every person has a choice...
it is human rights...
we got different emotions when other people or ourselves made a choice...
good or bad or ugly...
live with it...


some part of me returns...
i quit my jobs...
in circus...
in the batman movie...
in the pack of cards...
too tiring to hold three jobs at at a time...


no matter what... don't give up on yourself.



ps: 自取其辱

777th entry - last day of 2010

HELLO READERS ~
as promise, i am going to update my blog before 2011 starts...
it has been about one month since i updated...
quite shock that i only update twice for this month...
coincidentally it is the first and last day of december...


december should be a joyful and happening month for most people...
the festive season, the sales and the nice cool weather...
i enjoyed the most when i was a kid...
stayed with my grandma during these period...
the most memorable xmas i had was when my uncle and auntie brought me to orchard during xmas... think my first time there? i love that feeling...


the season of giving...
do we expect returns when we gave?
i would say no... even though there is a little yes in me...
at least an appreciation...
more than some strangers on the road...
i am fine with it...
because it is not a very big deal


new year eve...
i really fucking hate it...
really to the max...
do you know why?
i find it funny also...
happened in 2010...
ten years ago...
that period of time... i suspected i am getting some illness...
i was damn low... in the end i found out i am actually normal.
i know i am quite dumb.
the reason i love new year because it is a public holiday...
maybe i will enjoy in the future... hopefully !


new year resolutions?
i don't.
because i have my new day resolutions.
why bother to wait for one year?
even though i waited for nearly two years...


did you notice the domo at the top?
my laobu gave me just now...
she gave me one doreamon some years back...
maybe i shall let it go...
even i cannot forget... yes let it go !


from tomorrow onwards, hope i will change for the better...
forget everything...
forgive everything...
and stop being a clown...
and achieve what i want before the aliens invade !


wish everyone a healthy and joyful year ahead...
wish you happiness...


ps: actually i am writing on the first day of 2011... edited the date to keep my promise... because i hate to break promise...

two sides of a coin...

my hidden twenty cents coin ~

Wayne who whines is BACK !!!
actually everybody is whining...
today's topic is...
which sides of the coin are you?
does it really matters you are "head" or "tail" ?
does it really matters which sides you are choosing?
or do we need to choose?


have you play the game of guessing the sides of the coin before?
why do we want to play this game?
because we human beings like to win...
we want to prove that we are always right...
not sure that did we ever take a step back to think...
to think what this winning is for?
is it really worth the win?


i am insanely lucky that i own a coin with the same sides since years...
most importantly... it has no head and tail.
same sides.
if you ask me which sides of the coin will i choose?
i am afraid that i cannot make a decision or guess.
it will be the same answer.
does it really matters to choose when i have this coin?




ps: i am trying my very best to see things using a broader heart...

好多 patterns...

HELLO READERS !!!

so paiseh...
cannot keep to my one-week-one-entry promise.
nothing much happened these few days.

everyday things become so routine to me...
do we really expect changes?

but what is so a big deal about changes?

do we realise that we are still inhaling oxygen every moment?
do we realise that we are still unique individual who no one can be the same as us ?
do we realise that we are still so ignorance by saying "save the earth"... we are saving ourselves... humans...
do we realise that we are still human beings controlled by mother's nature?

do we realise everybody around us are getting older by the days?
do realise when it is not too late...


maybe everything is a cycle... to me is a bicycle or maybe a tricycle...
eventually we may return to where we start...
shall i end my entry?
yes, because i will start it next week hopefully =D

原来最大的敌人就是那内心的自己...

ps: 哎呦哎呦喔 哎呦哎呦喔喔... 哎呦,不错哦~

胜's画 no.104

3:03am and i am still awake...
a lot of things keep occupying my mind...
a lot of people keep disappointing me...
i lose confidence in human beings...
matters are getting complicated and irreversible...
i need to search myself back again...


i have a lot of thoughts in my mind...
but i am keeping to myself...
i feel that this world is fair to me...
but i hate a lot of things around me...
sometimes i feel myself terribly fake...
sometimes people is also faking their actions...
i don't know what to do...
i choose to hide and run away...
i try to mix with people who has a genuine heart...
someone who i can really behave myself...
i don't know what impressions people think of me...
but one thing matters me is that, they like me as who i am...


i admit i have a very stubborn character in me...
it is an opposite of perseverance...
so it is consider as negative...
i really hate myself when i made a decision...
i will force myself to stick to it...
it may turns out well or worse...
but it doesn't matter...
as long i am responsible for it...


now i really don't know should i be laughing or should i be crying?
or should i say, when i should be smiling?
am i doing at the right time?
or did u spare me the time?



ps: i am just typing some nonsenses... am i serious anyway?

definition of friendship ?

i know i am lazy for not updating on time
but i promise i will not give up on this little space of mine...


my new address for all those trashes...
http://mister-w-draws.blogspot.com/


friendship... friends...
internet friends and facebook friends i have a lot...
i don't need another one...
so hilarious...
that's why i will put a stop to it.


i still strongly believe in my definition of friendship...
friend is someone who we can call up at 3am...
friend is someone who we still able to see each other after 10 years...
that's my definition.


are you a friend who help me in my facebook games
or a friend who answer to my call to listen to my troubles?


so are we friend enough?
or are we enough of friends?
food for thought...


ps: i am wayne but this is not my name... so i don't really mind if you don't know how to pronoun my name... as long as u mean me.

11.10.2010

my ah ma has gone holiday for one year...
even though i do not think of her frequently...
i hope i can remember her for the rest of my life...
love.


what is mood?
i don't know.
because i have no mood.




ps: who is?

Been a long time since...

because i don't know what else i can do
don't tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life...

ps: hotmail restored...

what's wrong with me?!!

totally wrong...
did i answer my question so fast?!!!
indeed i am wrong upside down...


i cannot even imagine i lose to him!!!
i am worse than an animal...
maybe i over-reacted...


we made many decisions in our life...
some turns out to be good... some bad...
we accept it... or run away from it...
some have pride...
some will not take back their words...
some will...
some realised they should fight for it...
some will stay out of the picture...
no matter what...
this is life...
you made me like a clown...
like an insane...
i never forget...


i surely made some wrong decisions in life...
but... without some of these "wrong" decisions...
i may not know some of my friends or even enemies...
maybe it is great to know all kinds of people...
the bad and ugly let us appreciate how good the person are...
the good let us appreciate how bad and ugly the person are...


life is just a series of trying to make up our mind...
a lot of people tend to agree that once a person made up his/her mind...
the person should not change it...
i totally beg to defer...
do we reconsider?
do we give a second chance?
there is no wrong or right or left...
maybe there is something to do with the person's ego or pride...
maybe it is totally wrong!!!
that's bring back to my topic...
WRONG.


ps: i will make everyone in this world jealous of me...

to all of you(s)

a purse for my RM$

hello to the people around me
hello to the people reading my blog
hello to the people who will hello me when sight me
hello sounds scary sometimes...


i am very happy that you have found the right person...
if not, at the moment...
let's hope this is the last...
jiayou!!!


i am very sad that you have such a friend...
do u really hope your friend to treat u the same when u treat he/she well?
yes... a lot of friends are better than a lot of enemies...
why bother to keep those friends who only know how to make use of u?
do u really like the feeling of being make use?
you are just a tissue paper you know?!! 用了就丢...
let's hope you will wake up some times...
jiayou!!!


i am also anxious for you that you have not found the person...
surely... there is someone in this world is waiting for you...
let's hope your dream comes true...
jiayou!!!


i am very excited for your coming exams...
hope you will do well...
for yourself and for our families...
please work hard i beg you...
let's hope for the best...
jiayou!!!


i am least worried about you...
you are doing fine at the moment...
let's hope everything is in your way...
jiayou!!!


please dont anyhow 对号入座 hor ~
anyway 5 hopes and 5 jiayous to all of you(s)
done.


ps: do i really need an ipod touch?

不要对人太好...

这杯甘蔗水要马币四元...

林大侠来迟一步了
好久没更新了
因为没灵感~


不要对人太好... 因为他会骑在你头上
不要对人太好... 因为他不会领情
不要对人太好... 因为他不值得
不要对人太好... 因为没必要这么做
不要对人太好... 因为这会有压力
不要对人太好... 因为他在利用你
不要对人太好... 因为他不会为此而感动
不要对人太好... 因为在这个阶段就是不要对人太好


好人坏人
我也分不清了
反正井水不犯河水就是了



ps: 又是一堆屁话...

disappointment in the air.

HELLO plus SORRY !!!
i know this update is super late...
but it is better than nothing right?!!


i thought i lost something at first...
then i realised i didn't posess it at the very beginning...
i am so dumb right?


to those people who looked down on me,
to those people to gave up on me,
to those people who hated me,
i will become stronger.


what are people for?
to use or to be used?
to love or to be loved?




ps: this is an entry which i myself also don't understand...

home is sweet?

red, white, crescent and stars unite ~

an drawing i drew during my secondary school days...

singapore is not that bad...
at least i feel safe walking alone at night in singapore.




human are selfish
because the world is realistic
people will put themselves above everything
because the world is realistic
it is so pathetic




it has been awhile i never put up a question
there is one for you to guess...

Q: 唐三藏的老婆叫什么？

A: 西经，唐三藏娶（取）西经

human like to compare
human like to compete
比来比去
比比比 pikachu 啦 !!!

one last thing...

here a picture of pikachu if you are wondering what is that.

random thoughts ~

does this count as annoying?!!

i love hamburglar =D

life is full of possibilities
and life is also full of impossibilities...
and i told myself i must be BLIND...
indeed... very BLIND.


i trust-ed those trustees
i believe-ed those nightmares
i lie-ed those genuine words
we live in a grayish world.


i love McDonald's
i love ice-creams from McDonald's
it will makes ones feel like a child
it will makes ones mood happy
i love visiting McDonald's when i was a child just like others
i love visiting McDonald's still.


spent a lot indeed.
we can spend hundred dollars, but we don't waste one dollar?
am i spending or wasting?
where are the judges?

by the way, it is the friend that you can call up at 3am that matters...

ps: u are just as CUTE as her ~

七月的快乐总结 ~

taipei trip with my family =D

and friends =D

the only place which i dream of visiting which turns out to be a huge disappointment to me...
more photos via my facebook's album

Acquisitions from taipei
more photos via my facebook's album

jielun's 3rd concert held in SG with my brothers
more photos and videos via my facebook's album

the "J" sign...

请记住，我没那么容易倒下，谁叫我是周杰伦

only him can afford to say this...

there are 3 DVDs not in this photo...
only the pro will know =D

enjoyed myself...
but not totally...


taipei trip was good...
but it can be better...
i promise i will plan a better itinerary and researches...
cos we wasted a lot of time asking around =D


jielun's concert is awesome...
but it can be perfect...
if he can manage to team up with JJ Lin,
it will be perfect in my opinion.






thoughts for your pondering...

do you think you are living in the shadow of your friends?

do you really believe when you treat people with true heart,
and people will treat you the same?

what you gave up is it worth it?

people tend to make use of your softheartedness
and you succumb to it?

do you really have your own way of thinking,
or you are just contradicting yourself?

the question is...
do you being treated fairly?

ps: do something for yourself...

see you guys on sunday morning =D

the owner of this blog will be away for a few days
you may contact him via sms if you need to get something from taiwan =D

ps: don't miss me ~

低调的生日 ~

好久不见你还好吗？

很耳熟？

生日

还不就是三百六十五天当中的其中一天

有的人把这个日子看得很重

有的人超期待这个日子的到来

还不就是一天

我很讨厌这一天的感觉

因为我喜欢大家每一天都用同样的方式对待我

喔 对了

我在生日前几天做了一个小测验

想知道谁还记得我的生日

我知道我超无聊

其实是我不想让那些看到了是我生日才祝福我

我知道很瞎

谢谢大家的简讯和留言

我觉得要让人感动很难

很难

卡片很精致很用心

生日蛋糕很简单很惊喜

红包很实在很现实

有感动

但还不至于流泪

哈哈

没许愿

因为不相信

还不是一个可以让蛋糕店买多一个蛋糕的一天

写到这 就此搁笔

兔年行大运 =D

ps: 你把我当啥？

will be back soon ~

i hate this period.
hope it will be over soon.

ps: stay tune for more updates ~

the month of july and me.

my favorite fragrance ~


HELLO HELLO ~
yes it is approaching !!!
my long awaited month of july
a lot of events await me
as follows...
paintball with my brothers even though i find it stupid...
my first Taipei trip... only Taipei Zzz...
ict gathering... slacking time...
my jielun concert... although i am already "sick" and "tired" of his songs...
hope that is not all =D


i am going to do an experiment
will get the result real soon ~


encountered all sorts of things
seen the good, the bad and definitely the ugly
it helps me to realise who is always behind me.
i appreciate from the bottom of my heart
i will pay you back double =D
after a long long dream
not very sure it can be treated as a nightmare?
i am awake
because i deserve better
and definitely not a beggar.


and when your heart really speaks
take good notes of it
it will be better than the words from others
so lets get prepared to get a pen and paper ~


you will be the very best at it.

ps: SMILE everyday and it will only gets BETTER ~

你知道？

karter and me =D

bought this !!! 2nd last piece hor =D

HELLO EVERYONE !!!
visited the newly open STAGE =D
i like the interior and exterior design of the shop


its approaching july...
july will be an eventful month for me
follow my blog for more news =D


i hate looking down on people
and hate people looking on me and my love ones

u will be totally gone if u look down on yourself
prove to people u can succeed
prove to yourself at least ~

we cannot plastic surgery our happiness
the more we try to hide
the more unhappiness we will be


really i seriously dunno what human beings are thinking
lets wait and see zzz


world cup is great
but jielun's concert in taiwan will be awesome ~
even jay and jolin can be together again...
so what things cannot happen?

ps: do you really know what i am thinking?

从我的角度看很多事...

my fridge keep its cool~

oh my heaven !!!
it's another late late update...
as you all knew, i cannot blog without a picture...
so i need to source or capture or draw in order to start a post...

there are many angles and dimensions to everything...
sometimes, something small can make a huge difference...
sometimes, some words or actions can be hurtful...
sometimes, it's not the ideas you wish to portrait...
sometimes, we miss out some details...
sometimes, we regret...
sometimes, we only listen to ourselves...
sometimes, we thought we born in the wrong times...
sometimes, i shall not keep repeating sometimes.


different pair of eyes see differently
just like different heart feel differently
people say life is fragile
i really beg to differ
to me, relationship between human is more fragile
the complicated mind of every individual makes the entire galaxy so complex
the contrast is unbelievably massive
this is a cycle
we met different people, objects, challenges and decisions along our path
we won some and we lost some...
what we hold now is really the sweetest of things...
i cannot agree myself furthermore...


thought of sharing the story of "give" and "take"
in the end i feel it is not too appropriate to share it here.


by the way, i need to get myself a boss perfume and another STAGE tee.
by the way, i waiting for an important email reply.
by the way, i am blogging on a hungry stomach.
by the way, i am concluding my entry.


i may be crazy but not idiot


like my style, please follow
hate my attitude, please bear with it
because wayne is unbelievable.



ps: it is another boring post... sorry for the lack of effort... wait till then.

胜's画 no.103

entertain you.

瞎!!!

ps: envy.